My Personal Story
Back to the Land of the Living
My preference is to only focus on where I want to go from here and what I want to create.
However for those who ask, here is a brief story of my regaining health and joy and even a photo !
After 30 years with much illness and "un-health" I am now in my 50's and life is quite exciting. In my younger years, I lived with severe IBS, systemic candida, pre-cancer of the liver, chronic fatigue syndrome, chronic acne, 20 years of back pain, arthritis, allergies, bulimia, hypoglycemia, diabetes II, osteoporosis and migraines….to name a few.
It took way too long to restore my health, because I DID NOT KNOW what I DID NOT KNOW. Decades of unhealthy thoughts, and from a physical perspective, years of antibiotics, sugary foods and depression had created a breeding ground for toxins to multiply and bio-accumulate excessively. Over time this resulted in a weak immune system allowing for overgrowth of cancer cells, yeast, bacteria and fungus. These types of issues generally and eventually lead us to our physician's office where we receive a diagnosis that frightens us.
With all that I knew and tried, it never seemed enough. When I changed my diet to organic foods, adding in herbs, vitamins and homeopathic remedies, I was still always tired and fatigued. All of these steps were very good things to do, but not very effective at the time, because the state of my body health was akin to putting out a hotel fire with the garden hose.
So, I nibbled on bits of chocolate, sipping coffee throughout the day to keep myself "perky" enough so I could work, raise my children and appear successful to the rest of the world…until I was too weak and tired to get out of bed.
Thirteen years ago, I found myself in the hands of a wise, experienced holistic medical doctor, who used many diagnostic tools, including microscopic dry and dark blood analysis to get to the root of my health crisis (on the physical level). I sat there frozen as he read off a list of diagnoses that shocked me. Feeling as though I was floating on a raft in the ocean, I decided in that moment to follow nearly everything he said. I left his office with a $3500 bill which included 6 weeks worth of supplements. My instructions were to come back in another 6 weeks for retesting and more supplements.
I put my nose to the grindstone and began an intense detoxification process cleansing out the massive load of toxins, yeast, excess cancer cells and other pathogens as well as eating to repair and rebuild my body. Everything improved in that first 6 weeks, although it was 6 months before I really felt I was on the other side. Within a year and many thousands of dollars later, my energy, vitality and enthusiasm for living had returned. I also gained a wonderful education (self-taught) on how I had created such a physical mess in the first place.
At this point I had more energy to BEGIN working through some of the mental and emotional issues in the background of my thoughts which supported the breaking down of my body in the first place. (A lot of hidden fear.)
My finances were thin and I was frightened, BUT I was motivated to feel better. I took a part time job at an upscale resort/spa, started yoga (which was painful at first since my body was so stiff) and continued eating high quality nourishing foods and supplements to maintain and continue repairing my body - while I searched for answers to the depression and fears that were ever present.
All led to creating this website.
Some of the products I used to improve my physical health are included on this site, or have been upgraded to products that are more effective and potent today. I do take certain supplements and eat foods that I enjoy - even foods that I avoided in the earlier years.
So, I share my story. Yes my childhood was very, very bleak and abusive, leading me to feel sorry for myself for a long, long time. Hence my body displayed symptoms. When the opportunity presented itself, I chose to restore my physical health first since that seemed possible, for the other issues I carried felt too overwhelming to look at.
As mentioned above, once my body health improved, I made the decision to feel better and tiptoed into healing the layers of emotional and mental challenges I had been holding down like a beach ball under water. This took focus and being honest with myself instead of projecting an outward image that I had it all together. My POWERFUL DESIRE TO BE HAPPY was the fuel that attracted those who could help me discover freedom over pain. It took time, it was difficult, it was amazing and scary and now I have a lot more fun and am very grateful.
Please note: What is most important in searching for answers to life's challenges is to open our consciousness beyond the limited belief systems we were raised under. I was raised strictly Catholic. At age 18, I was compelled to find out for myself what "God" is - for something inside of me knew that there was more -- more than what I had been taught to believe. Much to my father's horror, I left the church and started my spiritual journey many, many years ago.
Although I had heard that we are never alone, I always felt very alone. Eventually I accepted that Spirit, Source, God, Creator, Higher Power etc. (whichever word describes who you pray to) is whispering to us all the time. Personally, I had to reduce the tremendous fear and the strong beliefs I was carrying so I could, in time, open my thoughts to hear the answers to my prayers. Help is available to all of us but it does not always come in the package we expect.
I met someone in the spring of 2006 who came to me to purchase the Red Desert Clay. This was the beginning of the help I was praying for. She pointed me to Robert Detzler the founder of SRT in Washington State and over the next eight months via many phone conversations, relief came to my body as layers and layers of unconscious patterns of deep seated traumas and inner conflicts were identified and lifted at the deepest levels. My physical body lightened up tremendously. (Robert Detzler is no longer with us.)
The frequent trips to the chiropractor completely ended in 2007, as my vertebrae more easily stays in alignment since my back is more relaxed instead of so rigid and tight.
For 25 years or so it had become a habit, a pattern to think about "how bad my body felt each day..." sometimes thinking about it hour after hour during the most difficult times. This pattern was a habit - a habit only I could change. In the most recent years I learned a new habit of shifting my thoughts away from what I don't like to what I do want. No sessions - no one could do this for me - this was the part that was MY work.
One on one consultations with Maryanne will be available in the near future.
Many blessings to everyone on their journey.
No matter what has happened to you, you are worthy of feeling I Am Perfectly Healthy.